I’m REALLY sorry about this blog going stale, but as off now stop232patent has been taking a lot of my time, a lot of speaking a bunch of calls, lawyers well it’s insane, I think I’ve had more conversations starting with “this is off the record” than in the last 15 years.
Is sometimes frustrating not able to talk about it, or write about this conversations, but still I’ll try to mirror whatever y put in stop232 in here and in my security blog, altho the MAIN site will be www.stop232patent.com always, for this fight and for other patent fights.
For everyone that has felt this in his life, this is for you
The single story perfectly describes the ignorance in which ppl go into, one event they push it and rub it because they are one story ppl and one story cultures.
I usually do not copy and paste posts, I’m against this, but this letter touched me and honoring Bill Zeller wishes I’ve copied here but I wanted to leave the entire post as a thanks to Joel Johnson who’s blog I read the post, you can find this same post here
Bill Zeller was a talented programmer whose work we’ve featured on Lifehacker. He took his own life on Sunday and left an explanation that I think it’s important you read.
Zeller was a victim of sexual and psychological abuse. It’s clear from his writing that the abuse left him unable to interface with the world in any way that didn’t leave him feeling he was too sullied to have the same experiences that he thought others had. He had a self-described “darkness”, which despite his prostration it’s clear he handled more ably than perhaps he ever realized.
Programming was a solace, but only temporarily. Zeller never felt he could escape the things that had happened to him because he carried his torment with him everywhere.
I think a person has the right to live or end their life as they choose. If Zeller really felt that suicide was his only option, so be it. But as someone who has had similar experiences in my own life, I want to say to anyone else who feels the way Zeller felt: You can’t escape your past. Not completely. But you can deal with it. You can contextualize it. You can learn how to prepare for the times when you feel like it’s not even on your radar and then it totally broadsides you.
And you can talk to people. You really can.
Bill Zeller
I have the urge to declare my sanity and justify my actions, but I assume I’ll never be able to convince anyone that this was the right decision. Maybe it’s true that anyone who does this is insane by definition, but I can at least explain my reasoning. I considered not writing any of this because of how personal it is, but I like tying up loose ends and don’t want people to wonder why I did this. Since I’ve never spoken to anyone about what happened to me, people would likely draw the wrong conclusions.
My first memories as a child are of being raped, repeatedly. This has affected every aspect of my life. This darkness, which is the only way I can describe it, has followed me like a fog, but at times intensified and overwhelmed me, usually triggered by a distinct situation. In kindergarten I couldn’t use the bathroom and would stand petrified whenever I needed to, which started a trend of awkward and unexplained social behavior. The damage that was done to my body still prevents me from using the bathroom normally, but now it’s less of a physical impediment than a daily reminder of what was done to me.
Iba a escribir un largo post, conmemorando que he visto que varias personas “non gratas” leen mi blog pero, sinceramente me termina dando seria flojera jaajaja en fin
